F rench auteur cinema has increasingly been exploring themes of sex through scenarios whose explicitness verges on the pornographic. Her film Romance was billed as the most explicit heterosexual art film of its time. Sexual and cerebral, violent and controversial, her work sets out to provoke. The girls have a typical sibling love-hate relationship—one moment insulting each other, the next ganging up on their parents and giggling helplessly.
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The king-size bed is inset into a floor-to-ceiling window. The room is lit from below and everything glows warm. Our Nikes are on the floor next to our clothes. All black. I hear the water running and watch as he washes me off his hands and rinses me from his mouth.
My mam has always wished she could be as skinny as she was the first time she thought she was fat - and I often wish the same for my sex life. Not necessarily that I wish I was skinny as I was when I first started banging, but I wonder how my sex life would differ if I'd stayed as thin as I was then. My first five fuck buddies, when I was 16 and a size 14, only banged me if I was fully dressed or off my face. These guys were not at the same time, but in quick succession, because as much as I hated my body back then, I have always adored getting railed. What these men did have in common, however, was their own slimness, or the kind of weight that was deemed acceptable on a guy but never a girl and not even a teenage girl from a fat family with an eating disorder to boot.
I was 16, a size 14 and it was —long before body positivity hit the mainstream or my Tumblr feed. Now, as a year-old woman wearing a size 20, sex has changed year after year as my body has gotten bigger and the dating pool has gotten smaller. Before fucking someone new, I feel the need to address my fatness before we meet. I think this is what some guys were hoping would happen too. Avoiding belly touching makes it all the more obvious that the belly is there.